new life.

so this weekend i was completely miserable.  i was exhausted all weekend because of work and then just like, relationship stuff. and i was sick of it.
so today i feel like i basically changed everthing that had been bothering me and had been making me miserable. i feel like i changed a lot of my life. 
first, i quit my job. i called concordia this morning and simply quit.  i didn't want to keep spending every single weekend busting my ass off at that job. i absolutely loved my job...i loved working with and helping the residents and taking care of them. but i hated being exhausted. and not having any flexibility in the schedule. or any appreciation from the management. so i quit. and i went back to sheet. which actually worked out even more perfectly than i had anticipated or even hoped for.  i went in and my manager was like, "what hours/days do you want, we'll give you anything." so i got to pick my work schedule. hells. yes.
then, i decided on breaking up with nick. for good this time. i'm almost sure. or at least, i hope i'm sure this time.
i'm just sick of sacrificing things for our relationship and not getting ant
hing in return. i feel like i give up things i want to do just to make him happy, but i don't feel like he does much in return. i feel tied down and controlled. and i don't like that feeling at all. and i'm sick of all of the stupid fights and bickering. the worry and anxiety. plus, i can't help but notice that when him and i stop talking and i do my own thing, i'm happier. i can't ignore that. that's a sign..

so i feel like today is a day that i'm like starting over with a lot of things. for once, i'm putting myself above other people. which isn't something i typically do. i hope i'm not being selfish. but i feel like i need to do what makes me happy for a change. and stop wallowing in misery and actually do something to change it. i hope these decisions are good..and i hope they make my life better and not worse.