a blessing in disguise?

so this weekend sucked. but i have to say that ever since sunday, things have gradually been getting better. the biggest and best thing that has happened since then, is that nick and i are finally on good terms. we are together. and i honestly feel like it's going to stay that way this time. the first time in a long time, that i can say things finally feel right.
so even with the stupid fight we had sunday, my parents flipping out, and a few other pieces of bad news i got on sunday, it seems like evertything that happened actually brought us closer instead of driving us apart. and for that, i am so grateful. i had missed him so much, and the feeling that he gave me. and it's finally back. and i can finally smile again for real.

on the parent front, things have finally settled back down. it took a few days, but i think they definitley chilled out a lot.  they didn't take my car, or make me come home more, or stop paying for school. everything is back to status quo, thank god. so that's good. my mom did admit to looking through the history on her computer and snooping into my blog...which i'm still not ok with. this has to be at least the 4th or 5th time she has invaded my privacy and that's not something that i'm ok with. she came up to me yesterday morning and was like, "so do you forgive me?" and i was completely honest. i told her i can be civil with you, but no. i don't forgive you.
my dad asked me the same thing. and i told him i really didn't appreciate some of the things that he said. i don't think he really cared about that though. and i don't think he understands how much the things he said hurt me. but with him, it's better to just act like nothing's wrong and things are ok. but if i'm being honest, i don't forgive him either. maybe eventually..but not right now.

everything else though, is going ok for the most part. i'm just taking everthing that happened this weeked as a good thing. because even though it sucked, me and nick are closer than we have been in a long time. and there's nothing i've wanted more than that.