it's crazy to have people say i'm an inspiration to them. or someone they look up to. idk, for the past eight years i have been the person that the doctors had said to "stay away from" or that i was "a bad influence." and i was really bad in treatment...hahaah anyone that was in there with me knows that. but i was just reading comments and got a few texts today that just made me think about how my recovery has an effect on everyone around me too. and i hope that i can help any of you in any way i can. that would be one of the best things that comes out of my recovery...seeing it help others.
today was a busy, fun day. class, tennis, and then i hung out with my ex boyfriend mike. which ended up being a lot of fun! we hung out last week too and had a really good time, so we decided to plan to hang out again. i don't know that i want a relationship at all right now, or what. but it was just nice seeing him and having a good time. and tennis was so fun, as always haha. i didn't play my best because it was super windy outside...but i have learned to NEVER EVER take tennis for granted. so i brushed it off and just enjoyed the fact that i was playing. but that's about all for now. it's time for bed!
I feel the same way with the whole 'inspiration' thing. It was always 'who would want to be her?' and now it's working to get to 'who wouldn't want to be her' well not that extreme but I think you get what I'm saying. That is such a great feeling, because I know I'm at the point now where my recovery is so significant to me that if I just want to see others get there too. You're doing awesome, Jen <3
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