it's been a while since i've last checked in...and the last post was just not something i should have written in the first place. i was drinking..and idk why, but sometimes when i drink i just end up getting super upset and then i decided to blog and a lot of it was stuff that i didn't really mean and should never have posted up here. so i'm sorry for those that read it. and that's also why there is nothing on that post anymore...i deleted it.
but anyways, things have gone up since that last post. of course i still have my ups and downs, but i feel like things are still heading where i want them to go.
new years eve was one of the best..actually probably THE best new years i've ever had<3 i spent it with mike and a bunch of his friends and it was seriously just a blast. with one minor exception. more nick drama. it's like, no matter how hard i try he just doesn't seem to go away from my life. i don't feel like going into all the details...but he sent a text that really hurt. and made me upset for a few days. and even though it brought back a lot of bad feelings..it just showed me how much better off i am without him. and how much i don't miss that AT ALL. and i talked to mike about everything..he was there when nick was calling/texting on new years. and he was so supportive and so amazing...and just perfect with the whole thing.
so honestly, right now i can't complain at all. mike really brings up my self-esteem and makes me feel just like, absolutely amazing about myself. i'm going to the pens game with him on saturday and i seriously cannnnnottt wait!! ahh! and then school starts back up on monday. so hopefully this new year, new semester, new relationship, and a new start will just bring more and more positives. i'm gonna look forward and stop looking back.
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